Dear Die-ary...

Yep, that's right, folks!! An update AT LAST. How long's it been? About a week. Sorry about not posting sooner. But now I am.

*checks watch*

Oh, sorry!! You wanted to know why I took so long. Weeeeeeell... One reason is too much work. Too much works!!! To be honest, I still have a lot. But SCREW IT ALL. I must UPDATE. Another reason is that I have a little book which I sometimes write in. Only if I'm... sad. Depressed. Wanting to kill a special someone, etc. So I would write in this book, which a lot of people mistake for a die-ary and then mock me about it, and then I just wouldn't feel like writing anymore.

So who is this special someone who I wanted to kill this time? Only Evil. Again. We sort of... 'split up', 'fell out', whatever you wanna call it. You can read our last conversation HERE. I was getting kind of sick of her 'judging me' and 'blaming me', etc.

She was an amazing friend and I will miss her very much [/sarcasm] .

But seriously, she destroyed my self esteem, or what little self esteem I had. My self esteem got me in this skool, and now she got rid of it... I feel like I can't achieve anything. She took away my opinion - whatever I said she would contradict it and say that her opinion was FACT and that was it. Then she would have the pleasure of calling me names, particularly 'useless'. Whatever the f*ck made me friends with her in the first place?? Gaaaah, this poor choice of friends makes me want to hack off about half of my head for being so stupid. But now I'm free from her... It made me somehow depressed. I think it was because of all that personality I lost... *sigh*. At least it's OVER.

*note to reader, I was gonna put the Teen Girl Squad 'It's over!!' sign here, but I was TOO FRICKEN LAZY*

More things. I haven't actually been happy this (last) week at all. I was at one point... I was happy for one day. However, I couldn't do the things I wanted to. These were, going out for a walk with someone, and watching the stars. That's what I like doing when I'm happy. However, my parents were too lazy to come with me. And I couldn't watch the stars either, as I had my paperround the next morning. Happiness... I hate it. As I always say (how many times have I actually mentioned this to someone this week?) - When you're happy, there's a bigger chance that all your hopes and dreams are shattered and crushed in a single action. It's true. Happiness - embrace it. Oops, I embraced it too hard, now it's dead. Crap, what a mess.

Speaking of updates though... HOORAH!! Homestarrunner.com's updated AT LAST!! This made me happy today. It did indeed. Strong Bad emails always brighten up my day. (That sounds so weird...).

In a lighter note, ever though he probably won't read this, Happy Birthday to my brother (Steven). He's 17 years old. 1 more year and you won't have to see me ever again!!