Dear Die-ary...

I was meant to be doing more Art work. I still can't be bothered. OK, it's because I tried a chalk-pastel-thing picture, and it went horribly wrong. I dare not work on it again. And yet it would go everywhere if I were to turn the page.

SOOOOOOOO I was to go to Hobbycraft to get these chalk-pastel-things before I did the picture, obviously. So, I found some, and went off to find Dad. Where the f*ck was he? Or my brother? Holy crap. Lost 'em. So I go everywhere, 3 times over, and wait near the door. I had an urgent NEEEED to use the bathroom (In the end I had to wait until I got home). Soon, I managed to find them. I had been waiting at the front for them, and they were waiting at the back for me. But then, we had to go and get some hamster food. Penfold had no food. Food food food. So, we got some. I was told to go to the car, and so I did. Unfortunately, I was at the car, but no keys were supplied. I sat on the ground, in front of the car. 2 middle-aged women walked past and pointed and laughed at me. I was soooooo tempted to shout, "What the f*ck do you want?? Never seen someone wait before? You f*cking retards." Instead I just glared daggers. Later, a couple of... uh, how can I put this? 'Retards' is too mean... 'Disabled' people with their helpers walked past. The first one, was just... mmm. It looked like she was wearing her PJs, but I didn't look too much in case I was thought to stare. The next one was an obvious down syndrome sufferer. She... at least I was told it was a she... grunted like a drunken monkey on crack. And very loud too. I'm trying not to take the p1ss here, for any people who are highly offended, I'm just describing the scene. Try not to hate me and my descriptions too much. Anyway, she scared me, as I had horrible visions of her jumping on me and ripping my hair out and gouging my eyes out and... yeah. And her helper scared me too. "Yes! Look! They're two objects! Now do you want to see the pretty flowers? Yes? You do? OK then..." I don't actually understand how she got "two objects" and "yes" out of, "Uuuuuuuuuuuuuugh."

But this has made me realise... OK, well, no real attention was brought to these two 'disabled' people. No one stared, laughed, or any other negative response was brought to them. However, I sit on the ground, and suddenly it's legal to laugh at someone sitting on the ground. But you're not meant to laugh or stare at 'disabled' people. Oh no. How dare you even think about staring at them?? It's OK to laugh at us 'normals'. (Notice the apostrophes? Don't kill me, please.) It's like that thing my Dad keeps on telling me... Disabled people and people like that demand the right to be just like us, and have all the rights we have. However, they also want the rights they originally had as well, making it unfair and more 'superior', in a way, to us. Mmm, please don't post threatening comments. I'm trying to make this sound as 'nice' as possible, and it's not easy.

More news? Ugh, OK. Jhonen hasn't replied yet, sob sob. Maybe the email just freaked him out. Hell, what if I've KILLED HIM??? Uh, in more JV-related news, have a music video summarising JTHM: http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/274026 . It's quite weird, but I like it. Plus, it has swear words, just like in the real comic book! Yeah!