Dear Die-ary...

I'm claustrophobic. I also have a fear of being 'touched' by people (yes, that explains why I refuse to hug anyone). You can start to see the relevance of this information. Or maybe not. I will explain slooooooowly and fully.

Well, for some reason, people had decided to flock around me particularly today. I think... this morning? Or was it yesterday? This morning, I think. Anyway, I think this morning people tried to hug me. I slipped out of their attacks and ran off screaming. Why does everyone want to hug me? What the hell is wrong with these people?? I hate hugging! I hate holding hands! I hate kissing! F*ck, I pretty much abhor every kind of physical contact! I say pretty much, because fighting's OK. Tackle me in the street and kick me into a busy road for all I care. Ack, but, back onto hugging and all that. Why do people do it? I don't understand. I really don't. In fact, I'm not even sure why I hate hugging etc. I guess... it's just seeing all the plastics hug. It makes me wanna vomit violently out of every orifice. Especially the 'Goodbye, see you in 5 minutes' kiss. That just makes me wanna spontaniously combust on the spot. Another thing I strangely hate, which I don't know the reason to (other than sleeping), is listening to music in the presence of others. I really don't understand my rusty clockwork brain.

But, still, everyone was in my way! People, everywhere, what the f*ck is this? Block-a-Bob day?? Mainly plastics were obstructing my path. Well, I mean, they block me everyday, but today was probably the worst case. They quite literally stood in front of the door, for the way out of the locker area. And you know what they were doing? Applying make up, listening to music, and dancing. In a more-or-less 2 metres wide corridor. They could go outside and do that! Go into a bigger classroom! Go dance on a newly-polished surface! WHY in a tiny, cramped, malevolently small locker area?? What drugs are they taking??! The sad thing is, you realise this is going to be their life. It sickens me. So very sickens me. And in the presence of the me! How dare they?? (*cough*) I want to destroy all those who like to 'touch' their friends. Oh, boy, gimmie a break! I'm trying hard enough to stop this sounding dodgy as it is! But still, I hate it. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT. And I hate all those who desire to hug me (you'd be surprised). Time for a JTHM quote:


OK, a little over the top, but you get my point. "All seek to enslave you" - in my life this is correct. All my friends sometimes decide to have a 'TellyTubby hug' with me in the middle. They are out to traumatise me.
0% bandwidth availability, here I come! But, I enjoy people just being there. I have eyes, I am not blind, I do not need to touch to know about someone's presence. Has my point been proven? I'll still carry on. The only times I've ever hugged someone out of my family (these days I don't even hug anyone in my family), is saying 'Goodbye (forever)' to a friend, because I was going to a seperate skool (the one I'm in now), and in a play, where I was a sweet little girl who lost her toy dog (wtf were the playwrites [plastics] on??). I apparently suited the part for I am 4'10"... enough of that subject. I have never held hands or kissed anyone outside my family. EVER. How do these people live?? I guess, the question runs through the plastics' minds about me. Heh. It's quite good to feel... different. Different. Unique. One-of-a-kind. For my aim in this life filled with a$$holes who pump themselves full of sh1t, is to stop the female stereotype. I have not yet succeeded, but I will continue to endeavour to get my point across. My point? "You... GIRLS!! You give the female gender a bad name! With all your make up and boys and... hugging... it makes me think you're trying to destroy our reputation! How can you live like this?? Why is it that you feel so rejected after f*cking a boy, then dumping him? Make up? Deary me, this is a girl's skool, for crying out loud!! Who the hell do you think you're gonna pick up tonight?? This shows how low your self esteem is!! And what's with kissing other girls? I thought hugging each other was bad, but... won't your d1ldos (aka boyfriends) be jealous? Don't you even stop to think about how soppy and girly you look?? You make me want to swallow cyanide!! And do you know how rediculous you look?? You sicken me to the point of decomposing in a heap of deadiness."

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